hectic yet smiling....

so tired!that's the only word that can best describe my life today....well...it's already a chaos when someone started to chart a bus so that we can go back to our hometown which is kelantan...at first,i am totally disagree with this idea as i have no experience in charting a bus...espeacially when it comes at this distance...Kedah-kelantan and so on...it's a really big matter to handle..
to make this post thriller,the process of gathering and counting the number of Kelantanese that wanna go back do frighten us...for a few sec,we feel happy...then we feel hopeless for another second...people just call and give us their names without conforming it...after that..they'll call back and said "opps!sorry...we can' join you,we already bought the tickets" and other bla,,bla,,bla reason...emm...for a while..i can still put my head over my body....somehow....when it comes to the real conversation...there're only 23 out of 32 people that promise to buy ticket under us,,,what the f***!!!!!!!this is the time where we must apply critical thinking...to cancelling it...that's irrational...how will you feel,,,when you've romised to someone that you will do something for him and then you break it,,feeling guilty rite?then...i have a little wise conversation with my hicom broker which are myrah and rihan...after a few bla bla,,we decide to cancel it...but when we see the looks of everybody's faces,,,we can't pursue the decision...so...i asked rihan to talk slowly with "Abg Bas"-bro,you're the greatest!!-he is very considerable...we managed to ask him to take us home with only 23 people...plus!!the price stays put!hehe...he's so kind....what a satisfaction we get when we managed to proudly yelled to others.."hey!!!we're going back!!!" and everybody is "hoooraaaaayyying"..hehehe..but still...another problem with another person...and that will be a secret...hehehe....bcoz it is already solved....particularly....i have worked really hard to reach this stage....together with Rihan and Myrah...we'll make such a great team...we can do more...but not by being 'broker',,,hehe

when there is lacuna.....

after being manipulated for past 3 days,i've seen there something incomplete with me...something still missing...ya!!!!that's lacuna!!!!
well....as far as my observation,,,people do not care who u are,,,,what's your achievements...what's your contribution......the 1st thing they demand from you is what u have???this world is going to be really crap!!how can they're being really mean and ruthless?somehow,i stunned when this is really happen to me..i just keep asking myself,,am i giving not enough to them?it does make me laughing....laughing..my other version of crying...hehe...u c..people are not well grateful on everything they have...they just hoping for more and more...although we can only give less..i really yearn to call this damn living thing as hypnotic balloon....once we got them in hands,,they give us fun..joy..n sort of that...but after we missed them,it fled away...making us running after them,,,then,leave us innocently all alone without any explanantion....well people...it seems that u do not know the beautiful meaning of unending frenship....you just came as ants when we pour sugar onto the floor,,then after you've enjoyed what we give,,you left us like we're only a packet of sweetmeat to you....that's irrational.... friendship..for me is an unending legacy that unfolding love.....why are you treating me like a jerk.....!!damn!!yes,,i know i am a little bit difficult to be noticed...but i got my own feeling....to be loved..pampered.... and remembered.....and now i think that you only come to me if,and only if you had a really terrible problem...em...dun worry...tikah can help....tikah can give you this...tikah can easily be fooled,,,,she willl do evrything...she is dull...is that what you think about me??huh??so funny you guys...for now this is how i can recreated myself...jus being who i used to be...and i am agree...sometimes...silent can be very loud......i can't be perfect....and will never be one....i just love of being me even i am so tired of that.....