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Sunday, November 22, 2009


kaki yg pulun men n jadi mangse komunis2 gandum..heheheehehe...

hooorraaayyy!!party gandum is here!!


halluuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!the best thing is always meant to be.....is that a killer joy statement..heheh well...today...-22/11/2009-it's eny's besday...of coz we're having something for her...we've plan it thoroughly and make it happen....hehe..it's actually something to be proud of when we managed to seek for the cake in 2 hours..hehe..that's quite an adventure...(i dun know why i did not get the chance to snap the cake!stupid for me!-but still the party is a chaos..hehe,,,hisyam with a glass of syrup....planning of pouring it onto eny (the birthday girl)..sorry eny..you gonna have to work a lil bit hard to get off the stain..hehe..but the best part it...u're smiling...

Friday, November 20, 2009

hectic yet smiling....

so tired!that's the only word that can best describe my life today....well...it's already a chaos when someone started to chart a bus so that we can go back to our hometown which is kelantan...at first,i am totally disagree with this idea as i have no experience in charting a bus...espeacially when it comes at this distance...Kedah-kelantan and so on...it's a really big matter to handle..
to make this post thriller,the process of gathering and counting the number of Kelantanese that wanna go back do frighten us...for a few sec,we feel happy...then we feel hopeless for another second...people just call and give us their names without conforming it...after that..they'll call back and said "opps!sorry...we can' join you,we already bought the tickets" and other bla,,bla,,bla reason...emm...for a while..i can still put my head over my body....somehow....when it comes to the real conversation...there're only 23 out of 32 people that promise to buy ticket under us,,,what the f***!!!!!!!this is the time where we must apply critical thinking...to cancelling it...that's irrational...how will you feel,,,when you've romised to someone that you will do something for him and then you break it,,feeling guilty rite?then...i have a little wise conversation with my hicom broker which are myrah and rihan...after a few bla bla,,we decide to cancel it...but when we see the looks of everybody's faces,,,we can't pursue the decision...so...i asked rihan to talk slowly with "Abg Bas"-bro,you're the greatest!!-he is very considerable...we managed to ask him to take us home with only 23 people...plus!!the price stays put!hehe...he's so kind....what a satisfaction we get when we managed to proudly yelled to others.."hey!!!we're going back!!!" and everybody is "hoooraaaaayyying"..hehehe..but still...another problem with another person...and that will be a secret...hehehe....bcoz it is already solved....particularly....i have worked really hard to reach this stage....together with Rihan and Myrah...we'll make such a great team...we can do more...but not by being 'broker',,,hehe

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

when there is lacuna.....

after being manipulated for past 3 days,i've seen there something incomplete with me...something still missing...ya!!!!that's lacuna!!!!
well....as far as my observation,,,people do not care who u are,,,,what's your achievements...what's your contribution......the 1st thing they demand from you is what u have???this world is going to be really crap!!how can they're being really mean and ruthless?somehow,i stunned when this is really happen to me..i just keep asking myself,,am i giving not enough to them?it does make me laughing....laughing..my other version of crying...hehe...u c..people are not well grateful on everything they have...they just hoping for more and more...although we can only give less..i really yearn to call this damn living thing as hypnotic balloon....once we got them in hands,,they give us fun..joy..n sort of that...but after we missed them,it fled away...making us running after them,,,then,leave us innocently all alone without any explanantion....well people...it seems that u do not know the beautiful meaning of unending frenship....you just came as ants when we pour sugar onto the floor,,then after you've enjoyed what we give,,you left us like we're only a packet of sweetmeat to you....that's irrational.... friendship..for me is an unending legacy that unfolding love.....why are you treating me like a jerk.....!!damn!!yes,,i know i am a little bit difficult to be noticed...but i got my own feeling....to be loved..pampered.... and remembered.....and now i think that you only come to me if,and only if you had a really terrible problem...em...dun worry...tikah can help....tikah can give you this...tikah can easily be fooled,,,,she willl do evrything...she is dull...is that what you think about me??huh??so funny you guys...for now this is how i can recreated myself...jus being who i used to be...and i am agree...sometimes...silent can be very loud......i can't be perfect....and will never be one....i just love of being me even i am so tired of that.....

Monday, October 19, 2009

still smiling,even hurting...

if the walls could talk.....will it be nice rite.....???

Sometime in everyone's life, they feel betrayed and all alone, like everything is a lie. You are trapped in a world of anger and rage and you can only see red through your eyes. No one seem to see when you are going through this time, or understand why.

But it is times like these that God takes you in His arms and tames your wild mind and assures you, you are never alone.


If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I‘m on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.

poor beyonce>>>hahahaha

R&B star Beyonce Knowles has postponed a planned concert in Malaysia, the event's organizer said Monday, following accusations by Islamic conservatives that the show would be immoral.

Knowles, known for her provocative clothes and choreography, had been scheduled to perform at a Kuala Lumpur stadium Oct. 25. The show has been postponed to a future date to be announced shortly.The postponement is a decision of the artist and has nothing to do with other external reasons. to say whether the decision was prompted by criticism from the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, the country's largest opposition group, which has called for the show to be scrapped because it would promote "Western sexy performances."

Knowles also canceled a planned performance in Malaysia in 2007 following protest threats by the opposition Islamic party. At the time, her talent agency said the show was called off due to a scheduling conflict.